💜Brownie Hope Erickson💜
🐶🐾September 7, 2010 – August 18, 2019🐶🐾
Brownie, you deserved the entire universe. The past 9 years have been the absolute greatest and no words can describe how much I loved sharing it with you. You will always be a tremendous part of me, siena, dane, joe, lucia, and the entire family. You were so special to us for so many reasons. I will always, always cherish the beautiful memories we shared.
I am forever grateful and thankful I convinced Joe to let you stay with me in Arizona for a few months. I loved every single second. I know you did also. I am so glad I had you all to myself for 1 whole dog year. I hope it was your favorite! It certainly was mine! I loved walking, driving, or biking with you to campus and sitting on the MU fratio with my signature Starbucks drink and probably writing a lab report. I ordered my drink and a cup of water for you. I left you at the table since you weren’t allowed inside but still had an eye on you from inside. When I returned you couldn’t control yourself because you were so excited to see me or maybe you just wanted some water. Probably me a little more. I dreamt of walking around campus and palm walk with you for the past couple years and I finally did. I loved how you quickly learned the drill when I woke up in the morning, took you outside before class and again later on when I returned from class. You were always so, so excited to see me come home and always pulled me down the stairs and out the door. I loved cutting baby carrots into small pieces for you even though it didn’t take you long to finish it.
You always put a smile on my face. I always enjoyed your company. Thank you for always being such a great sport when I dressed you up in your bandanna, holiday outfits, and especially wearing your custom designed grad cap while we took pictures for hours. I always enjoyed dressing you up even when you made the same “do I have to wear this” face. You were so much better at wearing hats than carter. He was just flat out annoyed at me.
Our polaroid selfies are hanging on my wall in my room in Adelaide. I wish you could’ve come visit. There are so many parks and beaches I could’ve taken you to. You were the best dog we could ever ask for. You brought our family closer together. We are so blessed to have you in our lives. Thank you @_siena_ for constantly begging for a dog. I love you so much and I know you loved me so much also. You also loved Siena, Dane, Joe, Cindy, Lucia, and the entire fam so much. I miss sharing my In-n-out burger, chicken nuts from cfa, and the veggies i should’ve eaten as a kid but gave to you. I’m glad you weren’t that picky.
As much as we want you here with us, I know you are having an absolute blast in Heaven chasing bunnies, playing with your favorite toys, and chilling on the couch with Mom while she enjoys a glass of wine and y’all look down on us. My two forever guardian angels.
We will always remember the amazing moments, memories, and the little things that made us laugh. Like the time siena brought home carter, hid him from joe, and you wanted to rat us out so you didn’t have to share the attention. We always treated you like a queen. The moments when go out to the car, forget something inside, walk back inside, and you were always over the moon with excitement to see us even if it was just a couple seconds. You always knew something was up when our suitcases were out and someone was packing. You always followed that person around so they knew not to forget about you. You followed me around while I packed for Italy. You laid on my pile of clothes to prevent me from packing. You knew what it meant when we got your airplane carrier out.
Looking at the pictures of me holding you and you wrapped your paws so tight around me arms, and a sad, worried look on your face before I left for Florence and Adelaide. But, when I saw you again in May, you were talking and barking so much and told me how much you missed me. I missed you so much too. I couldn’t wait to show you all the pictures I took, tell you about my weekend adventures, and read all my postcards. Even though you didn’t have a clue what I was saying or that you probably fell asleep listening to my voice, it meant the world to me to share those memories with you. It will be very challenging returning home in January without you there to greet me. I promise I will sit outside in the cold and tell you all about my time in Australia and even the attractive guy I met. You meant the world to me so the cold won’t bother me.
For Easter this year I bought us bunny ears, had an egg hunt for you, and we took a selfie together. Thank you for always looking at the camera and making adorable faces. I’m so glad I was able to dress you up as your favorite animal. Thank you for always comforting me when I’ve been sad and stressed. I loved when you licked away my tears and made a funny face after tasting the salty tears. That always cheered me up.
It is extremely hard for me to accept that you are gone since I’m 9000+ miles away from you and I just want to believe you’re home. But I know it’s even harder for the fam without you there. It broke my heart more when joe told me all your toys were in the same places you left them. I just couldn’t deal and bursted into tears. You loved every single toy you owned, You had so many toys, You loved your bunny, squirrel, the blue bone and angry bird the most. You were devastated when the squeaker fell out of angry bird but you still played with him. I loved it when you played with one toy and we introduced you to a toy you hadn’t seen in a while and you were so happy to play with that toy. Then we showed you another new toy and got so excited to play with that one. You had 3 toys around you and weren’t sure which one to play with. My sweet child.
You also loved your ASU sparky toy which made me so happy. The fam is sending some of your toys to me so I have some of your toys to hold. Oh Brownie, I miss you so much. I’ve been in shock ever since I heard the news. It’s been very hard especially with school and living along with strangers. But, you taught me to be strong and brave. You had so much bravery going to the bathroom in the snow in Kohler and the ground was so cold on your paws. You were brave going outside during thunderstorms because you knew it was now or in who knows how long. You usually went on the rug at the backdoor but you conquered your fear.
I’m so sorry you had a tumor on your spleen and weren’t able to communicate that to us if you felt any pain. I wish there was something we could’ve done to help you. I wish it was easier to detect and remove and didn’t have low success rates from surgery. In your honor, I’m going to find a place currently researching tumors in dogs and donate money so I can help other families and dogs in the future. You were so considerate so I want to do the same.
I was really looking forward to you being my winery dog when I open my winery. My winery will 1000% be dog friendly. I will have a picture of you on the wall, there will be dog accessories in the wine shop, and there will be wine for dogs. Don’t tell anyone but it will be flavored water similar to the beer taps at OHSO in AZ. I will dedicate a wine after you and mommy, of course. I’m thinking a sparkling rose since you were always happy and cherry.
You left us way too soon. You were supposed to live at least 8 more years. You were always o healthy, especially after the months in AZ when you lost 5 pounds. We were so proud of you. You taught me to be strong. I vow to stay strong even during these tough times. It will be difficult each day and will slowly get easier but will never be the same.
You were the absolute perfect dog ever. I really wanted you to meet my future dog of my own. You would’ve been a great role model to my dog, You always enjoyed playing with your doggie friends on the street. I always wondered how social you were while at doggie day care, Rover Oaks, and Pet Medical. You always received a straight-A report card but we were always curious to see for ourselves. We always wanted to watch you get a haircut at Rover Oaks. I’m so glad you got an upgraded room with extra play time, extra walks, a TV, a comfier bed, and a nighttime story. You always seemed comfort. My bed, your own couch, your soft, fuzzy blankets, and your pillow pets.
Mommy chose your middle name as Hope because you gave us hope. You always gave as positive energy during difficult times.
My letter to Brownie will be never-ending but this is all I can write today.